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| Don't... Don't go away... |
[Jun. 6th, 2009|10:39 pm] |
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Slept my saturday away. I can't believe it. I actually slept from last night's 8pm till today's 6pm. 22 hours? =/ I broke my 20 hours record... JACKPOT!
Blah....
I didn't want to wake up. Because each time time I woke up, I'll remember the piece of news which spreaded to me last afternoon.
I... I... I don't want you to go...
I wanted so much to tell you that.. I don't want you to go... But I don't know why I just can't... I don't have the courage to do so... I'm like cheering you on instead... Well, I guess I should be cheering you on. I can't be selfish. ADM suits you more than IMD. This is a fact that I must accept. And if you were to go, I guess I'll put my feelings aside and say "ja, mata ne" with a smile.
My mind's in a total mess. Gah. I wish I could just sleep my troubles away... DX
Would you stay if I told you to stay? |
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| I like王子new hairstyle! HANSAMU DESU YO! <3 |
[Jun. 5th, 2009|03:37 am] |
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Was late for school today. AGAIN! Chee Kiong didn't allow me to sign my attendance this time. HUR HUR. TT. He said that if I reach school on time next week, he'll let me sign today's attendance! I must reach school on time! Or else... I'll totally fail this module because of having less than 85% attendance. Sigh. Tell me how how how?!?! The traffic is really bad here. I have no idea why it has been jamming like shit lately. DAMN!
Another thing which is adding on to this sucky life of mine is that... FINAL ASSIGNMENT'S DUE NEXT WEEK!! AH MAH GAWD! I need ideas on what to do for my 1m by 1m sculpture. GAHHHHHHHHHH. 1m by 1m is... RIDICULOUS! Sighhhhhh. Inspirations... Where are you? Seems like you don't like me at all. TT WWWHHHYYYYYYYYY...........................
Wanted to catch a movie with Kenny and his girl friend (I forgot her name). They wanted to watch Blood but it's M18. They suggested that me and Esther should buy tickets for some other movie and sneak into their movie theatre. But in the end, Esther and I gave the movie a miss because she didn't dare to. Sigh. And we kinda... Argued? But of course, we started talking to each other after 3 minutes of awkward silence. I wouldn't want to lose an important friend just because of a stupid conflict. She's the very first friend I made in class! =D Hee. Don't like it when we argue with each another. D= *hugs*
Anyway, she finally got her SATA internal harddisk after making trips to so many places. We were super shag. Lol. And she finally told me about her problems after bugging her for like a month? LOL! Long desu ne!! HAHA! Bahhhhh.. You know that I'm here if you need someone to talk to. LOVE YOU! (^_^)V
 
WE LOVE BUS CONCESSION! WOOOHOOOO OMG YEAAHHHHH~ HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! =X (Retarded)
OH OH OH YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!! WHY IS EVERYONE SO CRAZY ABOUT DBSK AND SUPER JUNIOR AND WONDER GIRLS RIGHT NOW? 王子's still the best! 邱勝翊SAN WA SEKAI ICHIBAN HANSAMU OTONOKO DESU NE! =PpP
INSPIRATIONSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ DOKO DESU KA?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? DX
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[Jun. 1st, 2009|06:58 pm] |
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Class ended at 12 today. Caught 'night at the museum' at Ehub with IMDfreaks. Hahaha. I wasted 6 bucks la... I slept in the movie theatre. Gahhhhh. Was very very sleepy because I only slept for an hour last night. Everyone else was laughing damn loudly. It's a nice show. Too bad I fell asleep. DX
Tomorrow's gonna be a boring boring day. Have to stay back at art studio to do 3D art fundamentals assignment. GAHHHHHH. Sucks. I hate 3Dfund. Stupid clay and everything. Blah. I need ideas!!!! TASUKETE!!!
Didn't take any pictures today. DX |
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| You and me, we're from two very different worlds... |
[Jun. 1st, 2009|02:43 am] |
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Slept my weekends away. Watched my favourite show, mo fan bang bang tang! <3 I've finally caught up on those episodes which I've missed ever since school started. 王子cut his hair! Still as handsome as ever... Choc 7 finally released their debut. One of the songs in their album's written by 王子! Sugoii desu ne!~ (^_^)V
Sigh..
This feeling of emptiness is starting to overwhelm me once again. This feeling of 'wasting my life away'... I hate this feeling. I don't like this feeling of 'life is so meaningless and boring and dull'.
Life's a bitch. |
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| Those words hit me badly. |
[May. 30th, 2009|12:10 am] |
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What a bad day today... Sigh.
Why does it hurt so bad?
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| Can't stop the tears from falling. |
[May. 27th, 2009|02:42 am] |
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I hate to say this but I'm tired of life. Really. Everything's stressing me out. I'm a good for nothing. I don't do well in everything no matter how hard I try.
Sometimes I really really really feel like giving up on everything. But I don't wanna give up so easily. I don't want to be labelled as a useless person forever. I want to break free from that. I want to do well in everything and "wow" everyone. But it just seems so impossible. Instead of "wow"-ing people, I make people sidetrack among themselves during presentation because my work is SHIT!!!
And then there's my mum who keeps bombarding me with questions I don't feel like answering at all because it makes me feel worst. When I talk about it, I'll cry. So I always ignore her questions and continue doing my work. But when I ignore her questions and keep quiet, she gets angry. I always fall asleep while doing work. She is nice enough to wake me up but I always make her angry because I take a very very very long time to get up from bed. It's not on purpose. I'm sorry.
What's making me feel worst is that she keeps going on and on about how she had told me to change course since a long time ago. She's angry I didn't heed her advice. I chose a course which I'm totally weak at and now I'm struggling like a fish without water.
I'm weak. Weak till the point that no one likes doing group/pair work with me because I'll PULL THEM DOWN. It's alright If I'm not chosen by any of you. I understand.
Maybe I should really quit. That'll free everyone from someone like me.
I'm a total failure. A useless person. A good for nothing. A total disruption to the world. I pollute the world with my existence. |
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| Harsh reality. |
[May. 25th, 2009|01:51 am] |
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Left alone in this world. There's no one out there to help me. I'm stuck and I'm lost. Who will be the one to stretch out their arms to hold me and guide me through this?
I hate this cruel world. |
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| I'm sorry for being who I am. Weak. |
[May. 24th, 2009|02:00 am] |
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Feels as though I'm drifting further and further apart from everyone around me. I'm not good with words so very often, I get speechless. I'm sorry. And sometimes I say stupid things. Sigh. I don't know what to do. Maybe it's just me being sensitive but... I just don't feel good.
I hate myself.
If only I were born in an english speaking family...
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